wtu (what's the use)
Go ahead
Admit it
The failures, shortcomings, and guilt
All of it
All that you hold close tight inside your stomach
Afraid to let go and allow yourself to expand
Outside this container for the mind
Is there something more?
Hope and a dream to wake up from in the morning
A well painted canvas with room for a blank white page
Please color my schemes with emptiness
To let them know that not all was lost in me
That a light shown through for awhile
Repeat the thoughts then think the repetition again
See yourself from a distance and take great consideration
When the sweet birds sang past midnight a song just for you
God calls a few, but what about the masses?
What about the message that falls through the cracks when
We lose everything and maybe our mind
Maybe just maybe enough words to mean something to someone out there
Maybe that is what marks our time in here
Why the search for meaning, when we find the meaninglessness
Where is Home without the knocking of our door
A search for the Kingdom and the hour passing
Strikes our hearts cold
Clocks wear on with a weary lull
The cup over runs with joy and laughter most days
And yet somehow in the night, I become unfazed
How will the wolf survive when he has lost his gaze
Or aren't we all just here to comfort the living
Before we go to another side
Damned if I cannot remember the last time these waves found calm
Amidst the kaleidoscopic slide
All I hear is siren songs and I long
For a direction north of truth
No, I won't express the emotionless feeling
I get when my body seeks deep rest
So don't worry, I'm not okay
But I won't tell you tonight anyway
It happens when I am alone
And the edge of tomorrow has yet to come
Rest is not assured and my demons scrape into the door
A fight is a fight is another fight that fights within a fighter
To flee and to roam outside the home and never find love near her
Again I toil against memories losing their place
As I try to cobble up and hold together the photograph
Not enough light to picture
What once was
The Imperfections, the good stuff
I am not ready for you again
I cannot show why
So please, tell me what's the use
In anything anything anything anything
Wake up sleepyhead
The sun still shines.