In My Place

Thursday, July 18th, 2019

Life is a myriad of tastes and seeing. Neither of which can be explained in a singular viewing. The plural nature of our senses beckons for each moment's story to be told.

Thus, the mind wanders – losing sense of what is meant to be shared now. Right now.

Realizing that I am 26 years old and only have so many visits back home to see family within the course of one year. It seems a distant thought amidst all that is going on here in idyllic Monterey.

The painful mirage of our career, the immediacy of our intimate relations, and untimely meandering into new spaces – create a greater distance from those who have known us in our past, especially family.

This love is a guiding light and must run its course along my own life. Within this lifetime, I have witnessed the many times the same sort of love that my mom has given me, I have given to others. In this unique way, I am a mere extension of the illuminated heart: my heart and my mother's heart combined.

This feeling of shared experience, has a very powerful ripple effect. The same way traumatic and experiences that could be considered acts of hate and anger turn to a young child's heart into stone.

The efforts to undo what has already been done is complex and unveils unintended consequences. But when intention reveals herself with clarity and patient eyes, the heart cave seems to come back to that eternal state of which can not be forgotten in each one of us.

That we were born in this world. Just think and meditate on this for as long as you like. That is a very powerful phenomenon. Returning to that which gave you life, is like drinking from a fountain that sustains you. Now, it is important to recognize that life giving force doesn't quite have to be your parents, it could be your grandmother, a friend, or even a stranger. Especially a stranger.

The more obscure or simple your depiction of life itself demonstrates another beautiful reality - I think, therefore I am. You are a conscious being that has the ability to live long enough to have a seemingly infinite amount of connections with life! Yet, there are moments that life itself can be cold as the Pacific and distant as a dying star.

That spectrum are your thoughts and even then... You are not your thoughts. So who are you, really?

You are here. Right here. Right now. Reading this blue ink with effortless energy from your eyes to the mind's comprehension. You being here, means that you are alive. Maybe not well, but that is another tale for another day. But right now, you've made it. Congratulations - I know you don't hear that enough, but you are making your inner light shine. The toughest thing to do is to find that needle in the haystack and to love those around you, and give them all you've got.

There is no greater love than sacrificing yourself and your time here on this earth, in this universe embracing the ability to create new possibilities that reverberate in all of us.

That is the power inside us all. In an interesting paradox, once you give up that sense of power, control, ego, whichever you want to call it – you gain truth, sincerity, joy, friendship and ultimately you get a sense of home.

All the unworthiness, pain and suffering leads somewhere. Sometimes it leads to nowhere. But the very best of doing nothing leads to something. Doesn't it? It led you here, now. In the winds of changing times and space, you will feel that I am with you, loving you and in that deep love ~ I am at peace to where I am now and forever.